" Julieta begins. But Bobby cuts her off: "You got what
you wanted and then some. A British passport and " glancing out the window
he sees the doctor emerging from the courthouse " Enoch's survivor's
benefits on top of it. And maybe more later. As for you, Otto, your career
as a smuggler is over. I suggest you get the fuck out of here."
Otto's still too flabbergasted to be outraged, but he's sure enough
gonna be outraged pretty soon. "And go where!? Have you bothered to look at
a map?"
"Display some fucking adaptability," Shaftoe says. "You can figure out
a way to get that tub of yours to England."
Say what you will about Otto, he likes a challenge. "I could traverse
the Göta Canal from Stockholm to Göteborg no Germans there that would get me
almost to Norway but Norway's full of Germans! Even if I make it through the
Skagerrak you expect me to cross the North Sea? In winter? During a war?"
"If it makes you feel any better, after you get to England you have to
sail to Manila."
"Manila!?"
"Makes England seem easy, huh?"
"You think I am a rich yachtsman, who sails around the world for fun!?"
"No, but Rudolf von Hacklheber is. He's got money, he's got
connections. He's got a line on a good yacht that makes your ketch look like
a dinghy," Shaftoe says. "C'mon, Otto. Stop whining, pull some more diamonds
out of your asshole, and get it done. It beats being tortured to death by
Germans." Shaftoe stands up and chucks Otto encouragingly on the shoulder,
which Otto does not like at all. "See you in Manila."
The doctor's coming in the door. Bobby Shaftoe slaps some money down on
the table. He looks Julieta in the eye. "Got some miles to cover now," he
says, "Glory's waiting for me."
Julieta nods. So in the eyes of one Finnish girl, anyway, Shaftoe's not
such a bad guy. He bends over and gives her a big succulent kiss, then
straightens up, nods to the startled doctor, and walks out.
Chapter 61 COURTING
Waterhouse has been chewing his way through exotic Nip code systems at
the rate of about one a week, but after he sees Mary Smith in the parlor of
Mrs. McTeague's boarding house, his production rate drops to near zero.
Arguably, it goes negative, for sometimes when he reads the morning
newspaper, its plaintext scrambles into gibberish before his eyes, and he is
unable to extract any useful information.
Despite his and Turing's disagreements about whether the human brain is
a Turing machine, he has to admit that Turing wouldn't have too much trouble
writing a set of instructions to simulate the brain functions of Lawrence
Pritchard Waterhouse.
Waterhouse seeks happiness. He achieves it by breaking Nip code systems
and playing the pipe organ. But since pipe organs are in short supply, his
happiness level ends up being totally dependent on breaking codes.
He cannot break codes (hence, cannot be happy) unless his mind is
clear. Now suppose that mental clarity is designated by C [sub m], which is
normalized, or calibrated, in such a way that it is always the case that
0 <= C [sub m] < 1
where C [sub m] = 0 indicates a totally clouded mind and C [sub m] = 1
is Godlike clarity an unattainable divine state of infinite intelligence. If
the number of messages Waterhouse decrypts, in a given day, is designated by
then it will be governed by C [sub m] in roughly the following way:
Clarity of mind (C [sub m]) is affected by any number of factors, but
by far the most important is horniness, which might be designated by
[sigma], for obvious anatomical reasons that Waterhouse finds amusing at
this stage of his emotional development.
Horniness begins at zero at time t = t [sub 0] (immediately following
ejaculation) and increases from there as a linear function of time:
The only way to drop it back to zero is to arrange another ejaculation.
There is a critical threshold [sigma sub c] such that when [sigma] >
[sigma sub c] it becomes impossible for Waterhouse to concentrate on
anything, or, approximately,
which amounts to saying that the moment [sigma] rises above the
threshold [sigma sub c] it becomes totally impossible for Waterhouse to
break Nipponese cryptographic systems. This makes it impossible for him to
achieve happiness (unless there is a pipe organ handy, which there isn't).
Typically, it takes two to three days for [sigma] to climb above [sigma
sub c] after an ejaculation:
Critical, then, to the maintenance of Waterhouse's sanity is the
ability to ejaculate every two to three days. As long as he can arrange
this, [sigma] exhibits a classic sawtooth wave pattern, optimally with the
peaks at or near [sigma sub c] [see p. 546 top] wherein the grey zones
represent periods during which he is completely useless to the war effort.
So much for the basic theory. Now, when he was at Pearl Harbor, he
discovered something that, in retrospect, should have been profoundly
disquieting. Namely, that ejaculations obtained in a whorehouse (i.e.,
provided by the ministrations of an actual human female) seemed to drop
[sigma] below the level that Waterhouse could achieve through executing a
Manual Override. In other words, the post ejaculatory horniness level was
not always equal to zero, as the naive theory propounded above assumes, but
to some other quantity dependent upon whether the ejaculation was induced by
Self or Other: [sigma] =[sigma sub self] after masturbation but
[sigma]=[sigma sub other] upon leaving a whorehouse, where [sigma sub self]
> [sigma sub other] an inequality to which Waterhouse's notable successes
in breaking certain Nip naval codes at Station Hypo were directly
attributable, in that the many convenient whorehouses nearby made it
possible for him to go somewhat longer between ejaculations.
Note the twelve day period [above], 19 30 May 1942, with only one brief
interruption in productivity during which Waterhouse (some might argue)
personally won the Battle of Midway.
If he had thought about this, it would have bothered him, because
[sigma sub self] > [sigma sub other] has troubling implications
particularly if the values of these quantities w.r.t. the all important
[sigma sub c] are not fixed. If it weren't for this inequality, then
Waterhouse could function as a totally self contained and independent unit.
But [sigma sub self] > [sigma sub other] implies that he is, in the long
run, dependent on other human beings for his mental clarity and, therefore,
his happiness. What a pain in the ass!
Perhaps he has avoided thinking about this precisely because it is so
troubling. The week after he meets Mary Smith, he realizes that he is going
to have to think about it a lot more.
Something about the arrival of Mary Smith on the scene has completely
fouled up the whole system of equations. Now, when he has an ejaculation,
his clarity of mind does not take the upwards jump that it should. He goes
right back to thinking about Mary. So much for winning the war!
He goes out in search of whorehouses, hoping that good old reliable
[sigma sub other] will save his bacon. This is troublesome. When he was at
Pearl, it was easy, and uncontroversial. But Mrs. McTeague's boardinghouse
is in a residential neighborhood, which, if it contains whorehouses, at
least bothers to hide them. So Waterhouse has to travel downtown, which is
not that easy in a place where internal combustion vehicles are fueled by
barbecues in the trunk. Furthermore Mrs. McTeague is keeping her eye on him.
She knows his habits. If he starts coming back from work four hours late, or
going out after dinner, he'll have some explaining to do. And it had better
be convincing, because she appears to have taken Mary Smith under one
quivering gelatinous wing and is in a position to poison the sweet girl's
mind against Waterhouse. Not only that, he has to do much of his excuse
making in public, at the dinner table, which he shares with Mary's cousin
(whose first name turns out to be Rod).
But hey, Doolittle bombed Tokyo, didn't he? Waterhouse should at least
be able to sneak out to a whorehouse. It takes a week of preparations
(during which he is completely unable to accomplish meaningful work because
of the soaring [sigma] level), but he manages it.
It helps a little, but only on the [sigma] management level. Until
recently, that was the only level and so it would have been fine. But now
(as Waterhouse realizes through long contemplation during the hours when he
should be breaking codes) a new factor has entered the system of equations
that governs his behavior; he will have to write to Alan and tell him that
some new instructions will have to be added to the Waterhouse simulation
Turing machine. This new factor is F [sub MSp], the Factor of Mary Smith
Proximity.
In a simpler universe, F [sub MSp], would be orthogonal to [sigma],
which is to say that the two factors would be entirely independent of each
other. If it were thus, Waterhouse could continue the usual sawtooth wave
ejaculation management program with no changes. In addition, he would have
to arrange to have frequent conversations with Mary Smith so that F [sub
MSp] would remain as high as possible.
Alas! The universe is not simple. Far from being orthogonal, F [sub
MSp] and [sigma] are involved, as elaborately as the contrails of
dogfighting airplanes.
The old [sigma] management scheme doesn't work anymore. And a platonic
relationship will actually make F [sub MSp] worse, not better. His life,
which used to be a straightforward set of basically linear equations, has
become a differential equation.
It is the visit to the whorehouse that makes him realize this. In the
Navy, going to a whorehouse is about as controversial as pissing down the
scuppers when you are on the high seas the worst you can say about it is
that, in other circumstances, it might seem uncouth. So Waterhouse has been
doing it for years without feeling troubled in the slightest.
But he loathes himself during, and after, his first post Mary Smith
whorehouse visit. He no longer sees himself through his own eyes but through
hers and, by extension, those of her cousin Rod and of Mrs. McTeague and of
the whole society of decent God fearing folk to whom he has never paid the
slightest bit of attention until now.
It seems that the intrusion of F [sub MSp] into his happiness equation
is just the thin edge of a wedge which leaves Lawrence Pritchard Waterhouse
at the mercy of a vast number of uncontrollable factors, and requiring him
to cope with normal human society. Horrifyingly, he now finds himself
getting ready to go to a dance.
The dance is being organized by an Australian volunteer organization he
doesn't know or care about the details. Mrs. McTeague evidently feels that
the rent she collects from her boarders obligates her to find them wives as
well as feeding and housing them, so she badgers all of them to go, and to
bring dates if possible. Rod finally shuts her up by announcing that he will
be attending with a large group, to include his country cousin Mary. Rod is
about eight feet tall, and so it will be easy to pick him out across a
crowded dance floor. With any luck, then, the diminutive Mary will be in his
vicinity.
So Waterhouse goes to the dance, ransacking his mind for opening lines
that he can use with Mary. He comes up with several possibilities:
"Do you realize that Nipponese industry is only capable of producing
forty bulldozers per year?" To be followed up with: "No wonder they use
slave labor to build their revetments!"
Or, "Because of antenna configuration limitations inherent in their
design, Nipponese naval radar systems have a blind spot to the rear you
always want to come in from dead astern."
Or, "The Nip Army's minor, low level codes are actually harder to break
than the important high level ones! Isn't that ironic?"
Or, "So, you're from the outback ... do you can a lot of your own food?
It might interest you to know that a close relative of the bacterium that
makes canned soup go bad is responsible for gas gangrene."
Or, "Nip battleships have started to blow up spontaneously, because the
high explosive shells in their magazines become chemically unstable over
time."
Or, "Dr. Turing of Cambridge says that the soul is an illusion and that
all that defines us as human beings can be reduced to a series of mechanical
operations."
And much more in this vein. So far he has not hit on anything that is
absolutely guaranteed to sweep her off her feet. He doesn't, in fact, have
the first idea what the fuck he's going to do. Which is how it's always been
with Waterhouse and women, which is why he has never really had a girlfriend
before.
But this is different. This is desperation.
What is there to say about the dance? Big room. Men in uniforms, mostly
looking smarter than they have a right to. Mostly looking smarter, in fact,
than Waterhouse. Women in dresses and hairdos. Lipstick, pearls, a big band,
white gloves, fist fights, a little bit o' kissin' and a wee bit o'
vomitin'. Waterhouse gets there late that transportation thing again. All
the gasoline is being used to hurl enormous bombers through the atmosphere
so that high explosives can be showered on Nips. Moving the wad of flesh
called Waterhouse across Brisbane so he can try to deflower a maiden is way
down the priority list. He has to do a lot of walking in his stiff, shiny
leather shoes, which become less shiny. By the time he gets there, he is
pretty sure that they are functioning only as tourniquets preventing
uncontrollable arterial bleeding from the wounds they've induced.
Rather late into the dance he finally picks out Rod on the dance floor
and stalks him, over the course of several numbers (Rod having no shortage
of dance partners), to a corner of the room where everyone seems to know
each other, and all of them seem to be having a perfectly fine time without
the intervention of a Waterhouse.
But finally he identifies Mary Smith's neck, which looks just as
unspeakably erotic seen from behind through thirty yards of dense cigarette
smoke as it did seen from the side in Mrs. McTeague's parlor. She is wearing
a dress, and a string of pearls that adorn the neck's architecture quite
nicely. Waterhouse sets his direction of march towards her and plods onward,
like a Marine covering the last few yards to a Nip pillbox where he knows
full well he's going to die. Can you get a posthumous decoration for being
shot down in flames at a dance?
He's just a few paces away, still forging along woozily towards that
white column of neck, when suddenly the tune comes to an end, and he can
hear Mary's voice, and the voices of her friends. They are chattering away
happily. But they are not speaking English.
Finally, Waterhouse places that accent. Not only that: he solves
another mystery, having to do with some incoming mail he has seen at Mrs.
McTeague's house, addressed to someone named cCmndhd.
It's like this: Rod and Mary are Qwghlmian! And their family name is
not Smith it just sounds vaguely like Smith. It's really cCmndhd. Rod grew
up in Manchester in some Qwghlmian ghetto, no doubt and Mary's from a branch
of the family that got into trouble (probably sedition) a couple of
generations back and got Transported to the Great Sandy Desert.
Let's see Turing explain this one! Because what this proves, beyond all
doubt, is that there is a God, and furthermore that He is a personal friend
and supporter of Lawrence Pritchard Waterhouse. The opening line problem is
solved, neat as a theorem. Q. E. D., baby. Waterhouse strides forward
confidently, sacrificing another square centimeter of epidermis to his
ravenous shoes. As he later reconstructs it, he has, without meaning to,
interpolated himself between Mary cCmndhd and her date, and perhaps jostled
the latter's elbow and forced him to spill his drink. It is a startling move
that quiets the group. Waterhouse opens his mouth and says "Gxnn bhldh sqrd
m!"
"Hey, friend!" says Mary's date. Waterhouse turns towards the sound of
the voice. The sloppy grin draped across his face serves as a convenient
bulls eye, and Mary's date's fist homes in on it unerringly. The bottom half
of Waterhouse's head goes numb, his mouth fills with a warm fluid that
tastes nutritious. The vast concrete floor somehow takes to the air, spins
like a flipped coin, and bounces off the side of his head. All four of
Waterhouse's limbs seem to be pinned against the floor by the weight of his
torso.
Some sort of commotion is happening up on that remote plane of most
people's heads, five to six feet above the floor, where social interaction
traditionally takes place. Mary's date is being hustled off to the side by a
large powerful fellow it is hard to recognize faces from this angle, but a
good candidate would be Rod. Rod is shouting in Qwghlmian.
Actually, everyone is shouting in Qwghlmian even the ones who are
speaking in English because Waterhouse's speech recognition centers have a
bad case of jangly ganglia. Best to leave that fancy stuff for later, and
concentrate on more basic phylogenesis: it would be nice, for example, to be
a vertebrate again. After that quadrupedal locomotion might come in handy.
A perky Qwghlmian Australian fellow in an RAAF uniform steps up and
grabs his right anterior fin, jerking him up the evolutionary ladder before
he's ready. He is not doing Waterhouse a favor so much as he is getting
Waterhouse's face up where it can be better scrutinized. The RAAF fellow
shouts at him (because the music has started again):
"Where'd you learn to talk like that?"
Waterhouse doesn't know where to begin; god forbid he should offend
these people again. But he doesn't have to. The RAAF guy screws up his face
in disgust, as if he had just noticed a six foot tapeworm trying to escape
from Waterhouse's throat. "Outer Qwghlm?" he asks.
Waterhouse nods. The confused and shocked faces before him collapse
into graven masks. Inner Qwghlmians! Of course! The inner islanders are
perennially screwed, hence have the best music, the most entertaining
personalities, but are constantly being shipped off to Barbados to chop
sugar cane, or to Tasmania to chase sheep, or to well, to the Southwest
Pacific to be pursued through the jungle by starving Nips draped with live
satchel charges.
The RAAF chap forces himself to smile, chucks Waterhouse gently on the
shoulder. Someone in this group is going to have to take the unpleasant job
of playing diplomat, smoothing it all over, and with the true Inner
Qwghlmian's nose for a shit job, RAAF boy has just volunteered. "With us,"
he explains brightly, "what you just said isn't a polite greeting."
"Oh," Waterhouse says, "what did I say, then?"
"You said that while you were down at the mill to lodge a complaint
about a sack with a weak seam that sprung loose on Thursday, you were led to
understand, by the tone of the proprietor's voice, that Mary's great aunt, a
spinster who had a loose reputation as a younger woman, had contracted a
fungal infection in her toenails."
There is a long silence. Then everyone speaks at once. Finally a
woman's voice breaks through the cacophony: "No, no!" Waterhouse looks; it's
Mary. "I understood him to say that it was at the pub, and that he was there
to apply for a job catching rats, and that it was my neighbor's dog that had
come down with rabies."
"He was at the basilica for confession the priest angina " someone
shouts from the back. Then everyone talks at once: "The dockside Mary's half
sister leprosy Wednesday complaining about a loud party!"
There's a strong arm around Waterhouse's shoulders, turning him away
from all for this. He cannot turn his head to see who owns this limb,
because his vertebrae have again become unstacked. He figures out that it's
Rod, nobly taking his poor addled Yank roommate under his wing. Rod pulls a
clean hanky from his pocket and puts it up to Waterhouse's mouth, then takes
his hand away. The hanky sticks to his lip, which is now shaped like a
barrage balloon.
That's not the only decent thing he does. He even gets Waterhouse a
drink, and finds him a chair. "You know about the Navajos?" Rod asks.
"Huh?"
"Your marines use Navajo Indians as radio operators they can speak to
each other in their own language and the Nips have no idea what the fuck
they're saying."
"Oh. Yeah. Heard about that," Waterhouse says.
"Winnie Churchill heard about those Navajos. Liked the idea. Wanted His
Majesty's forces to do likewise. We don't have Navajos. But "
"You have Qwghlmians," Waterhouse says.
"There are two different programs underway," Rod says. "Royal Navy is
using Outer Qwghlmians. Army and Air Force are using Inner."
"How's it working out?"
Rod shrugs. "So so. Qwghlmian is a very pithy language. Bears no
relationship to English or Celtic its closest relatives are !Qnd, which is
spoken by a tribe of pygmies in Madagascar, and Aleut. Anyway, the pithier,
the better, right?"
"By all means," Waterhouse says. "Less redundancy harder to break the
code."
"Problem is, if it's not exactly a dead language, then it's lying on a
litter with a priest standing over it making the sign of the cross. You
know?"
Waterhouse nods.
"So everyone hears it a little differently. Like just now they heard
your Outer Qwghlmian accent, and assumed you were delivering an insult. But
I could tell you were saying that you believed, based on a rumor you heard
last Tuesday in the meat market, that Mary was convalescing normally and
would be back on her feet within a week."
"I was trying to say that she looked beautiful," Waterhouse protests.
"Ah!" Rod says. "Then you should have said, 'Gxnn bhldh sqrd m!'"
"That's what I said!"
"No, you confused the mid glottal with the frontal glottal," Rod says.
"Honestly," Waterhouse says, "can you tell them apart over a noisy
radio?"
"No," Rod says. "On the radio, we stick to the basics: 'Get in there
and take that pillbox or I'll fucking kill you.' And that sort of thing."
Before much longer, the band has finished its last set and the party's
over. "Well," Waterhouse says, "would you tell Mary what I really did mean
to say?"
"Oh, I'm sure there's no need," Rod says confidently. "Mary is a good
judge of character. I'm sure she knows what you meant. Qwghlmians excel at
nonverbal communication."
Waterhouse just barely restrains himself from saying I guess you'd have
to, which would probably just earn him another slug in the face. Rod shakes
his hand and departs. Waterhouse, marooned by his shoes, hobbles out.
Chapter 62 INRI
Goto Dengo lies on a cot of woven rushes for six weeks, under a white
cone of mosquito netting that stirs in the breezes from the windows. When
there is a typhoon, the nurses clasp mother of pearl shutters over the
windows, but mostly they are left open day and night. Outside the window, an
immense stairway has been hand carved up the side of a green mountain. When
the sun shines, the new rice on those terraces fluoresces; green light boils
into the room like flames. He can see small gnarled people in colorful
clothes transplanting rice seedlings and tinkering with the irrigation
system. The wall of his room is plain, cream colored plaster spanned with
forking deltas of cracks, like the blood vessels on the surface of an
eyeball. It is decorated only with a crucifix carved out of napa wood in
maniacal detail. Jesus's eyes are smooth orbs without pupil or iris, as in
Roman statues. He hangs askew on the crucifix, arms stretched out, the
ligaments probably pulled loose from their moorings now, the crooked legs,
broken by the butt of a Roman spear, unable to support the body. A pitted,
rusty iron nail transfixes each palm, and a third suffices for both feet.
Goto Dengo notices after a while that the sculptor has arranged the three
nails in a perfect equilateral triangle. He and Jesus spend many hours and
days staring at each other through the white veil that hangs around the bed;
when it shifts in the mountain breezes, Jesus seems to writhe. An open
scroll is fixed to the top of the crucifix; it says I.N.R.I. Goto Dengo
spends a long time trying to fathom this. I Need Rapid something? Initiate
Nail Removal Immediately?
The veil parts and a perfect young woman in a severe black and white
habit is standing in the gap, radiant in the green light coming off the
terraces, carrying a bowl of steaming water. She peels back his hospital
gown and begins to sponge him off. Goto Dengo motions towards the crucifix
and asks about it perhaps the woman has learned a little Nipponese. If she
hears him, she gives no sign. She is probably deaf or crazy or both; the
Christians are notorious for the way they dote on defective persons. Her
gaze is fixed on Goto Dengo's body, which she swabs gently but implacably,
one postage stamp sized bit at a time. Goto Dengo's mind is still playing
tricks with him, and looking down at his naked torso he gets all turned
around for a moment and thinks that he is looking at the nailed wreck of
Jesus. His ribs are sticking out and his skin is a cluttered map of sores
and scars. He cannot possibly be good for anything now; why are they not
sending him back to Nippon? Why haven't they simply killed him? "You speak
English?" he says, and her huge brown eyes jump just a bit. She is the most
beautiful woman he has ever seen. To her, he must be a loathsome thing, a
specimen under a glass slide in a pathology lab. When she leaves the room
she will probably go and wash herself meticulously and then do anything to
flush the memory of Goto Dengo's body out of her clean, virginal mind.
He drifts away into a fever, and sees himself from the vantage point of
a mosquito trying to find a way in through the netting: a haggard, wracked
body splayed, like a slapped insect, on a wooden trestle. The only way you
can tell he's Nipponese is by the strip of white cloth tied around his
forehead, but instead of an orange sun painted on it is an inscription:
I.N.R.I.
A man in a long black robe is sitting beside him, holding a string of
red coral beads in his hand, a tiny crucifix dangling from that. He has the
big head and heavy brow of those strange people working up on the rice
terraces, but his receding hairline and swept back silver brown hair are
very European, as are his intense eyes. "Iesus Nazarenus Rex Iudaeorum," he
is saying. "It is Latin. Jesus of Nazareth, King of the Jews."
"Jew? I thought Jesus was Christian," said Goto Dengo.
The man in the black robe just stares at him. Goto Dengo tries again:
"I didn't know Jews spoke Latin."
One day a wheeled chair is pushed into his room; he stares at it with
dull curiosity. He has heard of these things they are used behind high walls
to transport shamefully imperfect persons from one room to an other.
Suddenly these tiny girls have picked him up and dropped him into it! One of
them says something about fresh air and the next thing he knows he's being
wheeled out the door and into a corridor! They have buckled him in so he
doesn't fall out, and he twists uneasily in the chair, trying to hide his
face. The girl rolls him out to a huge verandah that looks out over the
mountains. Mist rises up from the leaves and birds scream. On the wall
behind him is a large painting of I.N.R.I. chained naked to a post, shedding
blood from hundreds of parallel whip marks. A centurion stands above him
with a scourge. His eyes look strangely Nipponese.
Three other Nipponese men are sitting on the verandah. One of them
talks to himself unintelligibly and keeps picking at a sore on his arm that
bleeds continuously into a towel on his lap. Another one has had his arms
and face burned off, and peers out at the world through a single hole in a
blank mask of scar tissue. The third has been tied into his chair with many
wide strips of cloth because he flops around all the time like a beached
fish and makes unintelligible moaning noises.
Goto Dengo eyes the railing of the verandah, wondering if he can muster
the effort to wheel himself over there and fling his body over the edge. Why
has he not been allowed to die honorably?
The crew of the submarine treated him and the other evacuees with an
unreadable combination of reverence and disgust.
When was he set apart from his race? It happened long before his
evacuation from New Guinea. The lieutenant who rescued him from the
headhunters treated him as a criminal and sentenced him to execution. Even
before then, he was different. Why did the sharks not eat him? Does his
flesh smell different? He should have died with his comrades in the Bismarck
Sea. He lived, partly because he was lucky, partly because he could swim.
Why could he swim? Partly because his body was good at it but partly
because his father raised him not to believe in demons.
He laughs out loud. The other men on the verandah turn to look at him.
He was raised not to believe in demons, and now he is one.
Black robe laughs out loud at Goto Dengo during his next visit. "I am
not trying to convert you," he says. "Please do not tell your superiors
about your suspicions. We have been strictly forbidden to proselytize, and
there would be brutal repercussions."
"You aren't trying to convert me with words," Goto Dengo admits, "but
just by having me here." His English does not quite suffice.
Black robe's name is Father Ferdinand. He is a Jesuit or something,
with enough English to run rings around Goto Dengo. "In what way does merely
having you in this place constitute proselytization?" Then, just to break
Goto Dengo's legs out from under him, he says the same thing in half decent
Nipponese.
"I don't know. The art."
"If you don't like our art, close your eyes and think of the emperor."
"I can't keep my eyes closed all the time."
Father Ferdinand laughs snidely. "Really? Most of your countrymen seem
to have no difficulty with keeping their eyes tightly shut from cradle to
grave."
"Why don't you have happy art? Is this a hospital or a morgue?"
"La Pasyon is important here," says Father Ferdinand.
"La Pasyon?"
"Christ's suffering. It speaks deeply to the people of the Philippines.
Especially now."
Goto Dengo has another complaint that he is not able to voice until he
borrows Father Ferdinand's Japanese English dictionary and spends some time
working with it.
"Let me see if I understand you," Father Ferdinand says. "You believe
that when we treat you with mercy and dignity, we are implicitly trying to
convert you to Roman Catholicism."
"You bent my words again," says Goto Dengo.
"You spoke crooked words and I straightened them," snaps Father
Ferdinand.
"You are trying to make me into one of you."
"One of us? What do you mean by that?"
"A low person."
"Why would we want to do that?"
"Because you have a low person religion. A loser religion. If you make
me into a low person, it will make me want to follow that religion."
"And by treating you decently we are trying to make you into a low
person?"
"In Nippon, a sick person would not be treated as well."
"You needn't explain that to us," Father Ferdinand says. "You are in
the middle of a country full of women who have been raped by Nipponese
soldiers."
Time to change the subject. "Ignoti et quasi occulti Societas
Eruditorum," says Goto Dengo, reading the inscription on a medallion that
hangs from Father Ferdinand's neck. "More Latin? What does it mean?"
"It is an organization I belong to. It is ecumenical."
"What does that mean?"
"Anyone can join it. Even you, after you get better."
"I will get better," Goto Dengo says. "No one will know that I was
sick."
"Except for us. Oh, I understand! You mean, no Nipponese people will
know. That's true."
"But the others here will not get better."
"It is true. You have the best prognosis of any patient here."
"You are receiving those sick Nipponese men into your bosoms."
"Yes. This is more or less dictated by our religion."
"They are low people now. You want them to join your low person
religion."
"Only insofar as it is good for them," says Father Ferdinand. "It's not
like those guys are going to run out and build us a new cathedral or
something."
The next day, Goto Dengo is deemed to be cured. He does not feel cured
at all, but he will do anything to get out of this rut: losing one staredown
after another with the King of the Jews.
He expects that they will saddle him with a duffel bag and send him
down to the bus terminal to fend for himself, but instead a car comes to get
him. As if that's not good enough, the car takes him to an airfield, where a
light plane picks him up. It is the first time he has ever flown in a plane,
and the excitement revives him more than six weeks in the hospital. The
plane takes off between two green mountains and heads south (judging from
the sun's position) and for the first time he understands where he's been:
in the center of Luzon Island, north of Manila.
Half an hour later, he's above the capital, banking over the Pasig
River and then the bay, chockablock with military transports. The corniche
is guarded by a picket line of coconut palms. Seen from overhead, their
branches writhe in the sea breeze like colossal tarantulas impaled on
spikes. Looking over the pilot's shoulder, he sees a pair of paved airstrips
in the flat paddy land just south of the city, crossing at an acute angle to
form a narrow X. The light plane porpoises through gusts. It bounces down
the airstrip like an overinflated soccer ball, taxiing past most of the
hangars and finally fishtailing to a stop near an isolated guard hut where a
man waits on a motorcycle with an empty sidecar. Goto Dengo is directed out
of the plane and into the sidecar by means of gestures; no one will speak to
him. He is dressed in an Army uniform devoid of rank and insignia.
A pair of goggles rests on the seat, and he puts them on to keep the
bugs out of his eyes. He is a little nervous because he does not have papers
and he does not have orders. But they are waved out of the airbase and onto
the road without any checks.
The motorcycle driver is a young Filipino man who keeps grinning
broadly, at the risk of getting insects stuck between his big white teeth.
He seems to think that he has the best job in the whole world, and perhaps
he does. He turns south onto a road that probably qualifies as a big highway
around these parts, and commences weaving through traffic. Most of this is
produce carts drawn by carabaos big oxlike things with imposing crescent
moon shaped horns. There are a few automobiles, and the occasional military
truck.
For the first couple of hours the road is straight, and runs across
damp table land used for growing rice. Goto Dengo catches glimpses of a body
of water off to the left, and isn't sure whether it is a big lake or part of
the ocean. "Laguna de Bay," says the driver, when he catches Goto looking at
it. "Very beautiful."
Then they turn away from the lake onto a road that climbs gently into
sugar cane territory. Suddenly, Goto Dengo catches sight of a volcano: a
symmetrical cone, black with vegetation, cloaked in mist as though protected
by a mosquito net. The sheer density of the air makes it impossible to judge
size and distance; it could be a little cinder cone just off the road, or a
huge stratovolcano fifty miles away.
Banana trees, coconut palms, oil palms, and date palms begin to appear,
sparsely at first, transforming the landscape into a kind of moist savannah.
The driver pulls into a shambolic roadside store to buy petrol. Goto Dengo
unfolds his jangled body from the sidecar and sits down at a table beneath
an umbrella. He wipes a crust of sweat and dirt from his forehead with the
clean handkerchief that he found in his pocket this morning, and orders
something to drink. They bring him a glass of ice water, a bowl of raw,
locally produced sugar, and a plate of pinball sized calamansi limes. He
squeezes the calamansis into the water, stirs in sugar, and drinks it
convulsively.
The driver comes and joins him; he has cadged a free cup of water from
the proprietors. He always wears a mischievous grin, as if he and Goto Dengo
are sharing a little private joke. He raises an imaginary rifle to his face
and makes a scratching motion with his trigger finger. "You soldier?"
Goto Dengo thinks it over. "No," he says, "I do not deserve to call
myself a soldier."
The driver is astonished. "No soldier? I thought you were soldier. What
are you?"
Goto Dengo thinks about claiming that he is a poet. But he does not
deserve that title either. "I am a digger," he finally says, "I dig holes."
"Ahh," the driver says, as if he understands. "Hey, you want?" He takes
two cigarettes out of his pocket.
Goto Dengo has to laugh at the smoothness of the gambit. "Over here,"
he says to the proprietor. "Cigarettes." The driver grins and puts his
cigarettes back where they came from.
The owner comes over and hands Goto Dengo a pack of Lucky Strikes and a
book of matches. "How much?" says Goto Dengo, and takes out an envelope of
money that he found in his pocket this morning. He takes the bills out and
looks at them: each is printed in English with the words THE JAPANESE
GOVERNMENT and then some number of pesos. There is a picture of a fat
obelisk in the middle, a monument to Jose P. Rizal that stands near the
Manila Hotel.
The proprietor grimaces. "You have silver?"
"Silver? Silver metal?"
"Yes," the driver says.
"Is that what people use?" The driver nods.
"This is no good?" Goto Dengo holds up the crisp, perfect bills.
The owner takes the envelope from Goto Dengo's hand and counts out a
few of the largest denomination of bills, pockets them, and leaves.
Goto Dengo breaks the seal on the pack of Lucky Strikes, raps the pack
on the tabletop a few times, and opens the lid. In addition to the
cigarettes, there is a printed card in there. He can just see the top part
of it: it is a drawing of a man in a military officer's cap. He pulls it out
slowly, revealing an eagle insignia on the cap, a pair of aviator
sunglasses, an enormous corncob pipe, a lapel bearing a line of four stars,
and finally, in block letters, the words I SHALL RETURN.
The driver is looking purposefully nonchalant. Goto Dengo shows him the
card and raises his eyebrows. "It is nothing," the driver says. "Japan very
strong. Japanese people will be here forever. MacArthur good only for
selling cigarettes."
When Goto Dengo opens the book of matches, he finds the same picture of
MacArthur, and